Catch ‘n Release

Author: • August 6, 2017 • Personal Essays

Bill had so much going for him. He was bright, witty, handsome, affectionate and generous to a fault, but when it came to his health he had a big problem called denial. The incident had, in a flash, turned my world upside down. Sad, confused, and tearful, I found myself on a wild emotional roller-coaster ride that left me physically drained.

During a date, weeks earlier, we’d shared information about our health and prescription medications, so why hadn’t Bill mentioned he was a diabetic and on insulin? Was I being spoon-fed? What else was he hiding from me?

Bill called me several times that week to talk. He was his charming self while we spoke and pooh-poohed my concerns. He laughingly said he was fit as a fiddle and wanted to see me, so we agreed to meet for coffee.

Almost everything in life carries some element of risk, so either I accept Bill or release him and move on. I struggled about doing the right thing. Was I prepared to take on something very complicated, and allow someone into my life with trust issues? I reeled myself back into reality. Then I thought Bill’s attitude and withholding crucial health information from one’s partner was a deal-breaker.

Several days later, when Bill and I met at Java Hyde Park, we stood close to one another and hugged. It was a heartbreaking parting. I wept.

Spring is a time of renewal. Inspired by nature with hiking trails out my front door, I sought solace in nature to grieve a broken heart. And opted not to go back fishing on line to the dating pool.

As the Chilean poet Pablo Neruda wrote, “Love is so short, forgetting is so long.”

About the Author

Cecile's writer: Katacha DíazAuthor: Katacha Díaz

Country of residence: United States of America

Nationality: Peruvian / American

Mother tongues: Spanish, English

Katacha Díaz grew up in the exotic land of the Incas, where she dreamed of someday becoming an author. When she was fifteen, her family moved from Peru to the United States. Chasing her dream she became a researcher/writer. Wanderlust and love of travel have taken Katacha all over the world to gather material for her stories and articles. She now lives and writes in the Pacific Northwest.

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